Hx - no title

I can't believe it.  I drained myself last week.  Last week.  Last week.  This does not follow the plan!  I have considerable personal resources!  I don't get drained in a week.  A year, maybe.  Or a really tough six months.  I'm a little offended by myself, to be honest.

And now I can't do any work.  I don't think I've done any real studying yet this week, which is terrible and only makes me more disinclined to study.  You see how I've been spending my time, look at the length of this bloody post.  To think I scoffed at the 2nd years who said they didn't do any work for the first couple of weeks of school, or took months to get into a real rhythm (even if that was only a good continuous monkeybarring motion from test to test).  I am the same.  I am just like them.  -facepalm-

Look, I know I'm whining, okay?  I can't help it.  I don't understand what is going on and as a result I'm not sick of my own drama yet, although that stage is coming.  I think I just gunned it too hard last week, and now I'm paying for it, and now my naturally even-keeled B-type personality will reassert itself and I will hopefully start getting on with things in a more balanced you know what never mind realistic fashion.  Soon.  Tonight.  Because I'm behind in Anatomy and if I don't start figuring out my neural crest from my ectoderm I will be in serious trouble.  See?  I'm prioritising already.  Let's just talk about something else.

In other news, I had my first real OMM (osteopathic manual manipulation) class today and it set me on fire.  It was absolutely the coolest thing I have ever seen/ done in my entire life, and I get to do it again next week.  Did you know skin feels different when you're running your fingertips over a healthy patch of tissue vs. a tense patch, or a really muscular patch?  It was amazing!  And then one of the instructors made me do a bunch of weird pulls and stretches that I don't know yet and fixed a spot in my back that has hurt for literally years.  It was completely resistant to chiropractic.  And now it barely hurts at all!  Did you know, D.O.'s who are trained in OMM can adjust your ribs?  And your feet?  And that your whole body has this continuous layer of tissue (called fascia) running through it, over the muscles, and that you can test the fascia at your toes by pulling on the back of your head?

Amazing!!  Let's go study Anatomy!

Hx - I am a zombie

I am tired.  Medical school is impossible.  I cannot understand the reality of months at this pace.


That is all.

Hx - Shell-shocked

See, the thing about looking at something far-off and going, "Yeah, that's going to be hard work," is that you fail to appreciate that it is going to be hard bloody work.

[shakes head, is out of words]

Hx - no title

Orientation is over!  It was mostly, but not completely, a waste of our time.  Tomorrow I get my white coat.  Monday morning we have HIPAA training and some other professional training, and Monday afternoon I start dissecting the back muscles.

This is just going to be so different.



I, uh... cried in the car today on the way home.  Mark it!  I made it all the way to the very damn end of orientation!  'Coz I'm a BOSS.

 

Yeah.

Hx - So that's a typical day for you?

The first two days of orientation have been stupid.  They made us play icebreaker games yesterday.  At a camp.  Like ten-year-olds.  I understand that they want us to get to know each other, but we're going to be in each others' space constantly starting now.  Getting to know each other is not a concern.  And quite frankly, I'm not here to play games, so let's cut the crap.  Tomorrow, though, I go in wearing SCRUBS like a BOSS.

In other news, I am going to be a doctor - if I survive the next two weeks, which apparently defy description, they're so ridiculous.  Every time a 2nd year tries to describe them, they get this paralysed look on their faces, and then shrug, and say, "You can't be prepared for it, so don't even try.  But you'll get through it." 

Pause.  Pause.  Pause. 

"Somehow." 

According to one girl, "I cried.  A lot.  Like all the time, actually.  And I'm not a crier.  But  then I got through it.  You'll be fine."  The entirety of today was devoted to teaching us how not to lose our minds, and informing us of several resources should we go ahead and do it anyway.

But I'll be fine.

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LIKE A BOSS.

Hx - Ha!

My final schedule for the semester came in today.  And I'm not in class for 40 hours a week - only 30!  The most amazing thing about this is that I get Monday mornings and Friday afternoons off.  Now, we'll see what 'off'' means functionally once I get into the semester, but I won't have class!  That's huge.  And every afternoon is labs, so it's at least a mixture of practical work and theoretical information.  Take a look.

Time	Monday	Tuesday	Wednesday	Thursday	Friday
8-9 A.M.			Diagnostic Imaging		Dean's Hour (once a month)
9-10 A.M.		Histology	Gross Anatomy	Histology	Medical Biochemistry
10-11 A.M.		Medical Biochemistry	Medical Biochemistry	Medical Biochemistry
11-12 P.M.		Gross Anatomy	OMM	Gross Anatomy	Gross Anatomy
12-1 P.M.	lunch	lunch	lunch	lunch	lunch
1-2 P.M.	Anatomy Lab, sec. 1	Anatomy OR Histology Lab, sec. 1	OMM Lab - sec. 1	Anatomy OR Histology Lab, sec. 1
2-3 P.M.
3-4 P.M.	Anatomy Lab, sec. 2	Anatomy OR Histology Lab, sec. 2	OMM Lab - sec. 2	Anatomy OR Histology Lab, sec. 2
4-5P.M.

It seems like they worked to pyramid the week; Monday and Friday are the shortest, while Wednesday is the longest.  Overall, it's a softer schedule that I thought it would be - still a lot of work, obviously, but I now see how people can do this medical school thing.

Less than a week until orientation starts!  You know what that means?  I get to go shopping for school supplies.  [squee]  Calendars, notebooks, post-it notes, dividers, flashcards... mmm, I can smell the organisation.  I get to get a new backpack! 

...I stand unashamed of my dorkitude.  Leave me with my academic neatness.